Moral Frailties

Am I naive? I whole heartedly believed in true love, in love is all you need, love forever, complete and total surrender to the one you love. and when you marry that person you enter a bond of love compassion caring understanding compromise respect and adoration for eternity. Marriage isn't something a piece of paper can say isn't true, you can't cut the bonds like a string. I'm at a lost, I feel ashamed and worthless that my marriage is falling apart that the one I love, my mate companion and best friend felt trapped and suffocated. So he left to save him self so he says. And now what am I supposed to do, I am left with this house, wedding rings, hand fasting cloth and the feelings of inadequacy? Maybe I am too old fashioned and need to get with the times, marriage is a fad, its something you can turn on and off... No I don't want to believe that, I can't. It simply goes against who I am as a person. Who I am to myself. I truly feel I can never marry again, nor have another deep meaningful relationship because I will feel forever bound to him. That isn't his fault, those are just my feelings on commitment and marriage. I gave him everything willingly it's not something you can simply take back after fifteen years of a committed devoted relationship. I keep wondering what happened and how did it happen so fast, I keep trying to figure it out, I know it's not good for me to do that, but I can't help it, I am trying to shake these feelings of failure, of worthlessness. I mean my family has more divorces o itself than any family should have, so obviously no one is faulting me, or thinking its wrong...but me. I wanted a simple wedding and a simple white gold wedding band, because I felt simplicity was best to express our feelings. In the old days divorce was frowned upon, and you either lived miserably and while I don't necessarily agree with that, or you fixed what was wrong and worked together to make it better. I am just at a loss, I feel like he gave up, he didn't even try. I feel like the lady who will forever be alone, standing forlornly on the cliff above the seething waters, forever awaiting her true love.... I know your saying god she is so dramatic but this is serious! Marriage is a lifelong contract, you shouldn't be able to break it without much struggle, and effort to make it work and fix it. -sighs- But the views of one doesn't overwhelm the views and wants of many. The human race will get what it wants, when it wants, how it wants and woe to the person who calls moral frailties.