Thursday, April 18, 2013

4 am

I guess I can't sing that 4 oclock in the morning song anymore heh, oh well. Shit happens doesn't it, Shit happens and when it does, not only does it happen but your covered, smothered, and royally fucked by said Shit, and when its over sometimes all you see is shit shit and more shit, but if you can wipe your eyes, hold your breath and look out from underneath all the shit, theres a few things left worth living for. Even if the things worth dying for WAY and i mean WAY outnumber the things worth living for, its those things that may be small that I cling too. Angels cuddles in the morning, Pepper zoe and sweetie happy good morning bounces, Eva kisses and giggles, tally conversations, riding with mom, hanging out at the house with harley, adam, john and donny, crafting with jeanene and watching loki be a crazy kid. feeling happy's unconditional love, counting on eddie for a quick scare and gwen for some down to earth advice, dad random funny txt messages, and words of encouragement and wisdom from gretchen... remembering tim knocking about in the garage and canning tomatoes with grammi, and poofy's rants about stupid people and coffee. and jasons crazy drink mixes, talking on the phone till the sun is almost up and wondering why in the hell we can't sleep. I may be doomed to pain forever and ever, but I am a wolf, I have a wonderful pack and even tho I want to just lay down and die, to give up and leave for the next life, they hold me down and say "no try one more time" funny I just realized you guys are my hope. hahaha Rediculousness at 4 oclock in the morning and its starting to get light, im not right where i want to be, but i been loosing track of time and im not sure what i wish anymore, but here is hoping to a good night....You know who you are, and I love you. I have always loved you and I will always love you. No amount of Shit could change that. -laughs crazily and wonders how much longer till pass out time.-

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