Confusion

I am having trouble distinguishing things in my head and reality. I have always had that problem, my imagination is too vivid, but now I see and hear things that aren't really there. I read too much into things, small things, large things even non existent things. Maybe that is what irritated him so much and when I began having such intense anxiety he just couldn't take it anymore. Sometimes I don't even intend to create things in my head, sometimes they come all on their own. So I can't feel my true feelings, I can't get things sorted in my head out of my head. Its all so jumbled up. I can't even tell what is real about me. How I feel about things, I go back and forth from being meek and mild little mouse to raging wolf destroying things in my head b/c apparently the mouse is stronger than the wolf. Completely rediculous... ugh..