Irritated.

Im Not really sure what is going on. I'm irritable, I just want to be alone. I don't want to deal with Chad at all today. I love him, but I just need some me time. I want quiet. Cool, dimly lit. I want my stuffed animals, my stones, my pictures, my alter. I miss my things. My space.  I like bathrooms. They are normally cool, quiet, safe spaces. I'm tired too. Like I'm out of spoons i think. I hope mom can go back to work. I hope Chad can go back to school and get a part time job. I want to be able to work my full hours successfully, so I can have money. I'm so tired of never having money. Of having all these old bills hanging over my head. Of not being sure how I can pay my co pays for my therapy. Of getting weed. I love weed. It's helpful. And I love that cbd oil. I miss my old house where I could take a bubble bath. That would be good right now.