Im Still

Im living, Im breathing, Im smiling.
Im talking to people and laughing.
Im going out and doing only what I want.
Im wearing makeup and being choosey on my clothes.
Im keeping my house clean, and being ocd on how I want things to be organized.
Im keeping my dogs clean and training them
Im caring for myself and my car.
Im watching what I want on TV
Im googling what I want instead of always asking.
Im killing spiders, Im  fixing sinks.
Im doing, Im living, Im breathing...
But Im still hurting.
Still missing you.
Still blaming me for not seeing.
Still angry.
Still in Love.
Still waiting.
Still Hoping
Praying
Loving.
You.